And I don’t want to get better.
I lay in bed as I ponder about this and I can’t figure out why I want to feel better,
why I want to force myself out of bed and try to make myself feel better.
Why I tell myself, “if you do this, you will feel better.”
Why can’t I just stay in bed and tell myself that it’s okay.
That it is okay to have bad days. That it is okay to feel the way I feel.
Just let myself be.